Hi! It’s me again! Lily!
I might not be as bubbly as I usually am. I’m a little sad today. Maybe it’s a let down after such a crazy weekend. I’m not sad often but it does happen sometimes. Lil’ miss exclamation point will have to save the exclamation points for another day.
I am so grateful to Dave and Sabby for taking me in, truly I am! And I’m grateful that they want to take me into their family. But I don’t know who I am. I know I am Lily, but I chose that name. I know Lily Day is July 25th. I know… that’s all I know about me. I don’t know who my “real” parents are. I don’t know what my name is. I don’t know what my birthday is. I just… am. Ever since they found me, that’s all I have to say. I exist.
Existing is good! But who am I?
In school they are teaching a little philosophy. I think, therefore I am, an old guy named Descartes said a very long time ago. I think, but I don’t remember. I am, but am I? I think, therefore I am, but I don’t remember, so who am I?
Some nights I have a hard time sleeping because I’m racking my brains for even the smallest scrap of memory, but I don’t have it. It’s like it never existed. It’s like I never existed. Sometimes I cry out of frustration. But I don’t let Dave or Sabby see. I don’t want them to feel bad.
Who am I?
Well, maybe I’ll never know. Maybe I just have to choose who I am, because nothing has been given to me except my body and some skills I don’t know how I got.
Sorry folks. Maybe tomorrow I will be back to my bubbly and cheerful self. But today I think I want to go back to bed. Maybe Sabby won’t pick on me about being useful. But she probably will.
I saw another stream with that dog-girl. She’s hilarious! She was playing a game called “Hidden Folks” and was going nuts with a bird noise! Huuwwwwaaaaaaaa!!!! But she speaks a different language. Japanese, I think. Maybe I want to learn it. Do you want to learn with me? I did a little research and it’s a really hard language, but I have nothing but time right now! There are some kids at school who are learning it, but I’m not sure I like them. They act all weird about it, saying things like “kawai” and adding “des” onto the end of everything, and they wear cat ears and talk about cartoons. I don’t understand them. The other kids call them “weebs”. But I don’t have to be a weeb to learn a language. Right?
But dog-girl is funny. I think I like dog-girl.
Anyway, I think I’ll either go back to bed or eat something disgustingly unhealthy. Either way, catch you tomorrow. Love you all!!! ❤️. Even if I’m sad today.