Hi! It’s me! Lily!!!
I didn’t post last night… because I didn’t. I’m not sure what else to say, I just didn’t feel like it. I guess it happens sometimes.
All the girls are over tonight. Of course there’s pizza and chocolate and all the stuff we love, but… there’s each other too, and that’s better than all the pizza and chocolate in the world, I think. Only a little bit better than chocolate, but it is, anyway.
I showed Miki the song Crystal wrote… She wants Crystal to become an idol. I’m not sure how I feel about that, and I’m not even sure it’s possible, but… I see why she’d feel that way. Crystal has… something. Something important. Something I didn’t see in her until recently. She’s been through a lot in life, but it doesn’t really define her… she defines it. This isn’t a quality everyone has. She’d get up on stage and sing and dance and smile, and she wouldn’t do it to hide all the bad stuff, she’d do it in spite of all the bad stuff, she’d sing and dance and smile to tell all the bad stuff to go to hell and she’s going to have a good life anyway and take everyone along with her.
I thought she was learning guitar because she was scared of being homeless again… and it’s one reason. I mean, she told me that. But I think another reason is that she wants to take those homeless days and turn them into something beautiful. She didn’t write me that song because she wanted to flatter me, she wrote me that song because that’s how she feels.
Maybe, of all my friends, of all my sisters… she might go the furthest. If she can manage to survive it all. That’s not a given, I guess.
But tonight, we’re just playing games and having fun.
Anathema found another place to live and she’s moving in this weekend. NOT with Joe – she asked and Joe flat out told her no. Not because he doesn’t want to, but because she talks the talk, and she needs to walk the walk before he can fully trust her.
She understands. She doesn’t like it, but she understands. She spent a lot of time carrying on and making a reputation for herself. It’s going to take her a while to live it down.
He is going to help her move, though.
And we’re getting a state of the art security system installed for her. I think she’s proven need, and so does Sabby.
Anyway, I should get back to it. They’re starting to call me onee-chan, and that never leads to anything good.
Tomorrow I’m going to perform that concerto for all of them. First time I’ll have played it through for people.
Love you all!!! ❤️
From the creator:
I frankly just didn’t feel like posting last night, so I didn’t. I try to keep that to a minimum, but some days are like that.
I’ve been watching “Love Live”. It’s really good. So far I’ve seen all sorts of things about how awful the idol industry can be, seeing how fun it can be is thought-provoking. I guess it’s like Miki says, it’s not all bad.